Today is Tuesday and I am already sick of holidays. I seriously just want the offer rounds for Uni to come around and start Uni already. Isolation is no fun whatsoever. I have had so much energy lately so I've been exercising alot and feeling really happy which is a positive change to my mindset. I'm kicking depression's ass pretty much at the moment. I'm still not writing very much poetry... I'll start again soon...
Kinda miss school at the moment too... especially Ancient History. Even though the subject could be boring at times, it could be really funny (in so many inappropriate/weird ways) and it was actually valuable to learn about). By 'valuable' I mean knowing that it's relevant; not like when you're sitting in maths learning about Pythagoras' Theorem and the question asks you to calculate the length of an ice cream cone or something stupid like that. Making ice cones in a factory isn't for everybody. I strongly doubt I'll need most of the maths (with the exception to basic and financial maths) that I learnt in senior grades (11 and 12).
I'll miss biology and english too... those classes felt like families (just very big ones). I know that sounds cheesy but that's honesty for you...
I tried to reflect on what I've learnt and will miss from younger grades ( year 8, 9 and 10) but I quickly became sidetracked when the memory of Mr Hooper (the deputy principal) sniffing the students' food/ assessment pieces during hospitality class in 9th grade became prevalent. I remember saying louder enough to get both my teacher and many wondering eyes' attention - 'Mr Hooper get away from my food'. That was definitely a day I will never live down...
And then there was the time I was being an idiot with one of my friends and was singing a terrible karaoke version of 'I don't like the drugs but the drugs like me' by Marilyn Manson and the principal walked past and gave me a look that pretty much spelled out a [What The Fuck] facial expression. This is probably why I'm no where near being a teachers pet. By the way to make matters worse this happened THIS year
I will enjoy looking back on all of the precious memories made with my friends which most of the time ended up with somebody getting either embarrassed, losing what was left of their dignity or making random strangers question our sanity.
Hope 2015 is just as good.
ShopDreamUp AI ArtDreamUp
Today
It's only Wednesday so I don't have very much to write about. Alot of my highlights for the past week or 2 has just been saying friends or chilling in town (which I do see friends there so it's fun).
Oh yeah and I had sushi on Monday :)
And raided the hospital's mango trees yesterday lol
Went thrift shopping.... lawl.
and saw a beautiful sky monday night
bought my very own casket of wine
And Hung out with my friend Claire in town
Bought lunch yesterday but the minimum amount of money was $10 of purchases to use my debit card and I had no coins on me so I had to double my chocolate eclair purchase lolI got to see my friend and obsessed
Today
Well today I haven't done anything particularly interesting but I'm okay with that since my body is so sore and tired from my attempt at a new years resolution of trying to get into shape. I hope this works and that I keep to it...
I haven't written much poetry lately since as many people have probably realized by now, my poetry is focussed around predominately depressing subjects. I simply have difficulty and very little motivation to write about these things while on my anti-depressants (but I guess that's a good thing). I'm going to delve deeper into some non-depressing poetry as holidays progress instead I think. The odd depressing poem
I need help choosing poems to enter?
I'm going with 3 poems to enter into the book coming out in Child Protection week next year and I've already decided that I'm going to use my 'Dancing With Depression' poem, but I intend to fix up the last few lines of the last stanza just to make it flow better.
I need help choosing 2 more poems, so that I have a better chance of at least one poem getting in, although I am pretty confident in my poetry and take pride in it once it's written. I'll put up a few poems that I personally like the most and If anyone sees this can you please give me a bit of feedback on what ones seem the best and if there are any parts you have suggestions for th
Thursday
Listening to: Nothing
Reading: These words
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Craving: orange juice
Doing: sitting at home on the internet
Highlight of the Day: Being lazy and not doing anything
Lowlight of the Day: knowing that I have to eventually do something
Mood: content
So my holidays have been super boring so far I've literally done nothing but stay at home (the most interesting thing I've done this holidays literally consists of going to therapy appointments in my own town)...
But then again I am happy about not being at school any more and that I graduated. I'm actually really happy that I'm no longer enrolled in high school I m
© 2015 - 2024 LostinFragility
Comments0
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In